what's love got to do with it? (part 2-ish)

Here's a part of my fellow Twitter/FB/Fetlife friend's blog: (nakedconfusion)
I found that now, where I am with myself, I didn't want one with him any other way. As things progressed with Daddy and me, I realized that I'd found something in him that I hadn't even been looking for. I found that I not only wanted him, but that I didn't want him without love. And when I realized that, I almost ruined everything because I couldn't see how love and d/s could work together.

The idea of having love in a d/s relationship was something I was unprepared to understand. Thankfully, one of Daddy's really strong suits is knowing me better than I know myself. That, and a heck of a lot of patience.

This resonates strongly with me.  I did not set out to meet Eric or even start anything with him; I'd just ended a budding M/s relationship because I couldn't face losing my other loves or taking a final step to handing over my body, mind, and spirit to someone I didn't love at least not yet. So here I was at Stella's potluck and teasing Eris and Eric because she was teasingly pimping him out. Somehow we ended up kissing. No big deal, but he was biting my lips and, well, being the good masochist I am, I responded. We started talking, friending on FB, I ended up at his house (more kissing) when Eris invited me to an last-minute BBQ, and had a dinner date at my house one snowy evening. Seemed totally vanilla even though we'd discussed my kinkiness and that he'd had similar play relationships in the past.  We even moved into my bedroom with the idea we'd at least do the first date vanilla thing. Didn't last very long as we soon agreed that vanilla was nice but perhaps we should try chocolate chip.

What catches me by surprise is the intensity of our feelings for each other, made more so by the nature of out D/s relationship.  He's very clear he does not want to be my Master, nor do I want that from him. That said there is something about putting such great trust in someone else in a relatively short amount of time that has the side effect of intensifying the existing and potential emotions. End result? I think I'm falling in love and seeing Eric as more than just a play partner. It's not one sided either. I'm still in shock - what took months to build with Mark and Debbie happened in record time with Eric.

And what do I find/realize in all of this? Love has a lot to do with this. It's a corrupting influence inasmuch as it spoils me for light and fluffy play. I have seen and experienced more. I think I want the more, at least now.