I think I'm...

Oh, sure. There's new relationship energy. Can happen rather often for me, depending on my mood and social events I attend. I meet someone, we connect on some level, maybe sleep together, maybe not. Perhaps we become friends who did or do sleep together. Or just friends. After Pam, I am happy to make new connections in my life and enjoy the love and caring I receive and enjoy that I can love and care for another human.

And then there's the time when it's all that and more. The connection that seems to transcend time, space, and relationships. Sometimes it happens over time, as with Mark, whom I cannot not see as part of my life now, after building a relationship over the past 10 months. Sometimes it happens quickly, as with Eric. I've been asking myself when is the right time to say that I think I'm falling in love with someone I only knew from photographs just over a month ago.

Oh, did I forget to mention this? Yeah, I saw photos of Eric and Eris that a friend took months ago. Felt the "zing" of deity letting me know this was someone to meet, but with all the drama and all, nothing panned out then. Fast forward through casual mentions of these two to communal dinners. I finally met them in person. Both are incredible people in and of themselves. But Eris prefers dating men and Eric women.

So here I am on a cool cloudy Saturday after spending the evening at a movie with both Eric and Eris and having Eric come back to my house for the night. And hearing from him the words I've been afraid to say out loud, "I think I'm falling in love with you."

I'm not running away. Not screaming in fear. Oh, I have the fear that revealing all of me means driving someone away. But I'm going to face my fear and try to share me with somone who is willing to say he loves me. It's a step back into the arena of love.